Some of us begin asking questions.  Questions about the 'big picture'.  Questions such as 'Is
there 'really' a God?', 'How can I find out more about Him'.  'What is the meaning of life and
where do we go after this?'.

This collection of web pages are from my journey that has lasted my lifetime, which to date is
about 44 years.  I love to share 'findings' and discoveries and share them with people that are
also on the 'trek'.
Great Books and Reading
Grace Mail
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Mark's church now has an attendance of 10,000 members, including myself.  I have known Mark for
over two decades now and have watched him and the church grow massively.  Mark teaches on the
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Does Evil Exist
A University professor at a well known institution of higher learning
challenged his students with this question. "Did  God create everything
that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"

"God created everything?" The professor  asked. Yes sir, he certainly
did," the student  replied.

The professor answered, "If God created everything; then God created
And, since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works
Define who we are, then we can assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not answer the professor's hypothetical
definition. The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the
students that he had proven once  more that faith in God was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "May I ask you a question,

Of course", replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold  exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of course it  exists. Have you never
been cold?"

The other students snickered at the young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to
The laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of
heat. Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits
energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy.
Absolute zero (-273C) is the total absence of heat; and all matter becomes
inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist.
What we have created is a word to describe how we feel if we have no

The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does." The student replied, "Once
again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in
reality the absence of  light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In
fact, we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and
study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure

A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it.
How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount
light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to
describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already
said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily examples of man's inhumanity
to man.  It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the
world.  These manifestations are nothing else but evil.
To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, sir, or at least it
does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just
like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the
absence of God. God did not create evil.  Evil is the result of what
happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that
comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes  when there
is no light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name -- Albert  Einstein
Paul Harvey wrote;

I don't believe in Santa Claus, but I'm not going to sue
somebody for singing a Ho-Ho-Ho song in December. I
don't agree with Darwin, but I didn't go out and hire a
lawyer when my high school teacher taught his theory
of evolution.

Life, liberty or your pursuit of happiness will not be
endangered because someone says a 30-second prayer
before a football game.

So what's the big deal? It's not like somebody is up there
reading the entire book of Acts. They're just talking to a
God they believe in and asking him to grant safety to the
players on the field and the fans going home from the game.

"But it's a Christian prayer," some will argue.

Yes, and this is the United States of America, a country
founded on Christian principles. According to our very
own phone book, Christian churches outnumber all others
better than 200-to-1. So what would you expect-somebody
chanting Hare Krishna?

If I went to a football game in Jerusalem,
I would expect to hear a Jewish prayer.

If I went to a soccer game in Baghdad,
I would expect to hear a Muslim prayer.

If I went to a ping pong match in China,
I would expect to hear someone pray to Buddha.

And I wouldn't be offended.
It wouldn't bother me one bit.
When in Rome ..

"But what about the atheists?" is another argument.

What about them?
Nobody is asking them to be baptized. We're not going to
pass the collection plate. Just humor us for 30 seconds. If
that's asking too much, bring a Walkman or a pair of ear
plugs. Go to the bathroom. Visit the concession stand.
Call your lawyer!

Unfortunately, one or two will make that call. One or
two will tell thousands what they can and cannot do.
I don't think a short prayer at a football game is
going to shake the world's foundations.

Christians are just sick and tired of turning the other
cheek while our courts strip us of all our rights. Our
parents and grandparents taught us to pray before
eating; to pray before we go to sleep.

Our Bible tells us to pray without ceasing. Now a
handful of people and their lawyers are telling us
to cease praying.

God, help us.
And if that last sentence offends you,
well ... just sue me.

The silent majority has been silent too long. It's time we
let that one or two who scream loud enough to be heard
.... that the vast majority don't care what they want. It
is time the majority rules! It's time we tell them, you don't
have to pray; you don't have to say the pledge of allegiance;
you don't have to believe in God or attend services that
honor Him. That is your right, and we will honor your
right. But by golly, you are no longer going to take our
rights away. We are fighting back ...
and we WILL WIN!

God bless us one and all ... especially those who denounce
Him. God bless America, despite all her faults. She is still
the greatest nation of all.

God bless our service men who are fighting to protect
our right to pray and worship God.

May 2006 be the year the silent majority is heard
and we put God back as the foundation of our
families and institutions.

Keep looking up.

by Paul Harvey
It is written that if a man backs down and is embarrassed to proclaim Jesus before
others, that Jesus likewise would not proclaim that persons name before his Father
in heaven.  

But him who does proclaim his name with pride in his heart, so also the Lord will
proclaim him before his Father!

Let us not fear, nor be embarrassed to talk of something or someone so awesome!  I
have found it feels better when you do bring out that which is like an overwhelmingly
awesome 'emotion'.

So great a King is Him that would die for His own people to save them from darkness
and demise.
Go out and pour fourth thine light

And I shall quench thy thirst

And I shall be thine meat

And I will show thee stars no telescope can see,

And I will take you where no eagles wings can go

And I will be there waiting for you.
When you are attacked by evil, when you endure great tribulations, remember that it
builds up your character, you become a stronger person, and your hope becomes
more steadfast!

I can attest to this from 10 years of brutal, spiritual torment.

'And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings
about perseverance; and perseverance proves a character; and through proven
character brings hope.  Romans 5:3-4.

You could thank the enemy, for they have made you stronger, your character
greater, and your hope, resilient.  

When evil pulls us off the path.

I might get pulled from the 'Good Path'.  It has happened, even to
King David, to Adam and Eve, and many many other good people.

When one is hit by evil, one should not stay down.  One must get
back up, right back onto the 'Good Path' and continue on!  

That one could get right back onto the right path with ever more
deligence, one is once more even 'stronger' against temptation
and the sights of which a good Christian can see and 'spot' a
snare or trap are ever sharper.

Let us always realise what little things we do might 'put' us into a
trap and bring havoc into our lives.

Notes on Being a good Christian; when evil pulls us off the path.

William Ortis 7/12/2005

New Entry;

Satan and its demons use our weeknesses as gateways to 'get in'
and use these weeknesses as 'snares' to trip us, to derail our
wheels from the trek to God.  We must learn our weeknesses and
make them our strengths.   We must learn how our hearts work
and learn to 'sense' a door that is being 'opened' by the enemy
and bolt the door moderately, by any way whatsoever possible.  
Calling a friend, praying with someone, learning to walk away,
listening for the quiet voice within that is from God and the Holy
Spirit.  Learn to sense the 'beginning' of an attack.  It will escalate
before you know it.  It will accellerate without you knowing it.  It
will have you if you dont get that doorway of weekness locked up
and boarded up.

If it does happen, then it happened and you must forgive yourself
and pray and study the incident to figure out how it happened so
that it will be a mistake of the enemy as you will turn it into a
strategic study to keep it from happening again.  

The goal is to get to heaven.  The goal is God!  Everything else is
second.  Thus we must live life from that very point.  If anything
thus would come between you and God, then throw that thing
away.  Cast it out fast.  Do not think of it for even a second.  Give
it absolutely no time what so ever.  Show God what is important to
you, Him or something that would destroy your walk with God.

Satan's number one job is to destroy Gods children.  His demons
will seek to fall you by your weeknesses.  You must know your
weeknesses and create battleplans and strategies to keep
weekness doorways bolted so that the enemy absolutely cannot
get back in.

William Ortis  7/27/2005

New Entry;

Lust is like a cancer, a fire that seeks to never be quenched, that
grows and grows if it gains foothold in a persons life and soul.  It
destroys peoples lives.  Lasiviousnous is where sin goes into 'out
of control' mode.  You MUST know the snare from great distances
so that you will never get to the point of lasiviousnous.

Components that will destroy your walk with God or derail you
from your trek to God and Heaven is;

Alcohol can make you weak.  People fall when they are drunk for
their strength was taken from them and the enemy then attacked.

William Ortis 7/27/2005

New Entry;

Let not sin 'steer' us from God.

Behold a small way from the path, that it is enough in 'time' to
have full effect that we are lost, fully lost.  Let us not swerve one

A small leak in a great ship is enough to sink it.  Let not the
slightest sin keep you from heaven.  A great city can be lost by a
leak in a dam.  Let not the smallest 'permission' occur in your life
with sin.  Pray constantly that God will give you the strength to
keep sin 'out' of your life.

The trees that must put up with the greatest winds bear forth the
strongest wood of all.  That the winds rip at their branches and
seek to uproot the tree, behold, it is growing even then more
powerful then it was before.

In the worst of times, quiet your mind and listen for the Holy Spirit.

When you are in an emergency, look for the emergency exit your
Lord has put for you.  It is there somewhere.

Learn to 'smell' the snares of the enemy.  The still voice within will
warn you of them.  

Make the right decisions in the times of trials.  Blessed is the
morning after where you passed your tests of temptation.  
Brighter is the sun, more glorius is Gods day that such a victory is
won against evil.

A drunkard stumbles, but a sharp and sober man is keen and
quick, sharp and pure.

William Ortis 8/2/2005
There are moments in reflecting and meditating upon God, like
after reading the Bible, that thoughts will come to me.  I have
learned to write these down.  Years later, when I read them again,
I am astonished.  Some times we do not realise how close we
actually are.

Joyce Meyers once said that when you pray, to also listen.  I
have found that the Holy Spirit has a soft, calm voice that seems
to come from the inner most center of my mind.

I also know that evil talks into a person as well.  It is written to
test the spirits, that you will not be mislead by evil ones that
come to you, disguising themselves as good, when they are not.  
Be careful.  

The closer to God you become, the more intense the spiritual
battle will be, for satan and its demons will fight to keep you from
finding God.  You who have not known battle 'in' the mind,
cannot know the depth of that meaning.  

Stay the path.....   no matter what.
A Vision that came to me while in Church when I asked in my mind
how 'many' pastors of different churches could teach the same
teaching on the same day and each of different churches.  (On this
day, three pastors of 3 different churches taught the exact same

I then saw myself high over Earth and it was night time.  Near to my
right in the distance was a white star, soft white.  I then saw a drop
of water fall from the star, and it fell all the way down to Earth, and
the drop landed upon the ocean and the ocean was still like glass and
the drop did not 'hit' the water, but 'touched' the water, and a calm
ring of waves formed from this and moved out slowly and calmly in
several rings of ripples, and each was a wave that grew calmly as
each moved forward and outward.

I then saw myself over a neighborhood and there was a house, and a
tree in its side yard that was quite large, and a house of a neighbors
behind this house, and it was a neighborhood and it was dark and it
was illuminated faintly from a streetlight that was greenish or bluish.
And behold the wave from the single drop of water came through
the neighborhood and I looked down from where I was at and saw the
wave flow through (through) the house, and its side tree, and
through both back yards and through the neighbors house, and
continue on,
unempeded from the elements.  The wave was like a gray color and
moved 'through' all things on Earth and it was not fast, but moved
calmly, and it was quiet.

I thought about what I had seen and suddenly I saw myself above
Earth again.  I saw the star to my right and it was still night.  
However, I
then found myself right beside the star and it was Jesus.  I then
realised that the drop of water was 'living water' and the ocean that it
'touched' was humanity in their sleep, and it washed through all of
humanity in the night, from one end to the other, and that was how
Jesus was able to give a message to all of humanity in a single day,
and how all those pastors would have the same sermon and teaching
on the same day.

The vision ended and I was back in Church, listening to my Pastor
Giving Thanks when you pray

When I pray, and end my prayer, I always thank God, Jesus, 'and' the
Holy Spirit,
For who knows at what price a message may have been sent to me,
and from what great distance,
That God Himself may have dispatched a message from the Throne
of Heaven all the way to me,
and perhaps I had 5 demons surrounding me, and the Messenger got
through the barricade,
and boldy delivered the thought to the center of my very mind that
would change my life for ever.

It is through Jesus that God hears our prayers.  
It is the Messengers that deliver us from evil.
It is God that knows the millinia to come like it is yesterday

And thank Them one and all, each and every, and I even pray to God
for Jesus, and pray prayers for the Angels,
that they have strength, might, boldness, blessings, a happiness in
their hearts, and that they are ever victorious against the evil forces

I thank Them......
To the ones that make war against the Christians and Jews.

How would it be that the followers of God could be told to kill God's
own children and they would do it?

How could a people follow a voice, a 'self proclaimed prophet' that
would tell a people that God says to kill His own children?  Who would
be foolish enough to believe this?  Why would God turn on His
precious ones, the ones He sent His only child, Jesus Christ the
Messiah, to Earth that they would have eternal life and be forgiven of
their sins.  Why would God change that.

If the Jewish people and the Christians are called infidels by a group
that would say that God told them too, then verily, they cannot be
following the same God, no matter what they say.  For Gods
children are always with Him.  Jesus Christ said that 'His children are in
His hand.  'No one' can take them from Him'.

Surely, if anyone would say to a self proclaimed prophet or people, to
go and kill the Jews and the Christians, that they are like animals and
that they should be beheaded, it can only come from the most low
demon, lucifer.  Only 'it' would declare a war upon God's children.  

Whoa unto them that would dare to slaughter the children of God.  
Verily, they who have, have gone against the most high God.  They
have sought to harm His Heart with such bloody, thoughtless actions.  
Whoa unto them for they shall know the anger and might of God when
God judges those souls that would do such things to Gods children that
He has for Millennia protected with His own hand.

If they who say they follow the same God, truly seek to follow God
perfectly, let them study their ways and path.  If God would say to kill
His own people, it is as a King that would invite another country to kill
His own people, that He would have none left.  But verily, the snake
and serpent would create such a lie, such a believable lie, to bring
down the children of God, that they would be slaughtered.  lucifer
would tell them of how he would reward them with greatness for
slaughtering 'Gods people'.

If you are wise and fear God, search your self and your heart.

'What thou doest unto the least of my followers, thou doest unto Me'
sayeth the Lord.

A fool will make war with God by making war with His children.  An
abomination will slaughter Gods children and say unto God; 'Thanks for
delieving Your own beloved children that I could smile in their faces
and kill them ruthlessly, the ones You love so much'.  That, is the
words of a demon.  Verily, that is the battle cry of a demon that follows

This message came to me on October 6th, 2004
A message that came to me on Tuesday, April 8th, 2008.

What is it to pray to plastic?

What is it to pray to canvas with paint on it.  Can it hear you?

Why do you do that which I have commanded you not to do.

Am I plastic?  Am I made of canvas and paint?  Am I made of plaster
and rare marble?


I say to you that you who pray to marble, to plastic statues, to
paintings, you are praying indeed to marble, plastic, and paints....   

Those who follow My commandments follow Me.  If I command it that
thou would bow down to 'no' graven image, even of heaven above, that
means 'none'.

Did I not tell you that I am Spirit?  Did I not say to pray in the Spirit that
God would hear your Prayers?  

Know your ways.  Know your steps.  Know your words.  Be sharp.  Be
right in your actions and words and deeds.  Let no one cause you to
stray the path to God one iota.

Go not to spirits for truth and wisdom, go to God.  Remember when
Saul went and called upon Samuel the Prophet when he needed
guidence?  Was not Saul repremanded for having not gone to God?   
Go not to various spirits for wisdom, truth, and needs.  Go to God.  
"....For I the Lord thy God am a 'jealous' God" sayeth the Lord.  Pray to
God and no other.  Have no other spirits before you but God.

Remember the word of God.  As it is written, it is.  Make your path from
His word.  Study His word and be free of deceptions and lies.  Pray to
God to be able to see a deception when it is upon you.  Know right
from wrong.

Follow God.  Pray to God.  Seek God.  

Stair not into the eyes of a painting.  Stair not into the face of a beautiful
marble statue for Me, for I am not there.  I am Spirit, not marble, nor
plastic, nor paints..   God is Spirit.....
The value of every moment of a single day is like that of gold.

If a day were a wall,
and you were the man assigned to make the wall,
and the wall were made of bricks,
and each brick was a moment of time.
How then would you go about making your wall.

Behold the wall will remain as a part of your past
a showing of your ambitions and asperations
For each brick was placed by the importance you placed upon that very moment

Some will place their bricks quickly, and not calculate the layers
Their walls will not be sturdy, but fragile, and thus the fortress of their life also will be fragile
But a man that makes every brick of every moment important, and can see the ways of yesterday
and tomorrow, he will lay his bricks carefully, even at times, delicately, and his walls will be the
strongest, and his fortress mighty, and the great winds and foreign enemies shall not prevail against
it, for its moments were twined with wisdom.

Thus, how will the very next moment be spent.
and how much value is upon that very moment.
and remember, if a moment is as gold, then imagine the value of an afternoon or the morning

Holy Spirit
The Value of a Moment